ignored a wound
scars remained
physical
emotional
infection influencing mind
mind in chaos
unhappy
unconvinced
unsure
unsatisfaction
camping in the mind
total disorder
peace gone
self-esteem at the lowest
never leave a wound unattended
every wound needs a closure
i never understood how i made it through all the ups and the downs all the gaps and the in betweens all the chaos and the tribulations all the uncertainties and trials i never understood too why some women are lucky enough to have the chance i have the chance of a good life the chance of providing a voice for the muted ones the chance of living my dreams when some women out there are struggling to make a living yet i am very sure they have the same skills and talents as i am the same determination the same spirit the same courage the endurance the same resilience yet hiding in a shelter worrying how the future would be or if there would be a future at all so this is for each and every woman whose lives have been changed by abuse whose fates have been…
chaosnot in line withmy plans and thought processit throws me off balance, out ofcontrol now watchdictators hidein the guise of helperswaiting to pounce on weak momentshate them… know whyI hate chaosdisorder disturbs peacemy unhindered existence, curbspower mirrorsshow same instinctsmy hunger for powerbeyond my life and existenceI fear RXC #252
There’s plenty to forage here, from marshland to field to forest, the last pawpaws, the autumn olive at its scarlet peak, and now the frost-touched ripe persimmon, sweet as honey, and still it’s the weird, even alien- looking plant that lures with seeds like sunrise, food for animals but forbidden to me.
colors and patternsspeak, yet leave things open tointerpretationwe communicate onlywith standardized symbols I spend the night hunting for lost words. I dream of failure to deliver on a writing project, because I lose a clue. It’s a syllable falling short somewhere, or a synonym not found. The antonym is too aggressive and throws me into … Continue reading Lost words
I believe that synchronicity is the result of the universe sending us signals for something we don’t understand. It happens to me in small ways all the time. You think about someone, and the person calls. A delayed parcel arrives just as you plan to lodge a complaint. My husband and I may think about … Continue reading Synchronicity
It was my first day at work as a repossession agent. “Do you have the number to call an ambulance?” Dan asked. “What for?” “Loan defaulters often get collywobbles or feign myocardial infarctions when you approach them. They should be hospitalized immediately, lest you are slapped with a suit.” Three days later… “I can’t believe … Continue reading Framed
Stitching in a little chaos always good shakes up the norm the usual humdrum what the opposites attract theory really means? News bombardment disappointment sorrow never ending guilt unresolved feelings Curiosity for the unknown usually works whisking you sometimes into the chaotic but steady on keep the faith—whatever that means for you.