Time chimes in my mind I think of then, now, and when Always in slumber and often in waking, I peruse perception’s many doors. Through memory, imagination, and hope I find ambition, inspiration, and fear But there is one door I will never open again; And that door is LOVE!
You! My curse Dreams disperse As love destroys For better, and for worse! I once pondered on Hellen’s ploy Her plight they say brought the downfall of Troy Sympathy and suspicion surround lies so true When a loved one wields you, as Love’s decoy When Time chimes; plays you like a toy Till heart and bliss averse! And love turns coy Pain rehearsed Hope’s farce; You!
Everything about her was a lie And now that door will not open My heart remains an island, hoarding its bounty Waiting…
everything about her is a lie starting off with her big charming smile down to her notorious strong profile and her perfectly empowered life.
everything about her is a lie she covered it with her sweetest glow hiding all the pains of being beaten so low of silently wanting to scream out loud.
everything about her is a lie she had to make a false show a pretense for everyone to know that she is better than being okay.
everything about her is a lie and maybe one day she’ll learn to figure out the hell she is trapped with for long.
There was much consternation in the family when he had said “yes” to her.
It was an arranged meeting set up by his maternal grandfather. Even though his parents were reluctant to go ahead with his ‘seeing’ the girl, as she was dark-complexioned, they couldn’t say no to his grandfather.
He had found her utterly charming, witty as well as feisty. He could easily see himself spending his life with her.
“But bhaiya**, why did you say yes? asked his younger sister curiously. “You know mom wants a chand ka tukda jaisi bahu!” ***
He laughed heartily and replied,”But choti****, she is chand ka tukda! When you look at her you realise, it is a moon wrapped up in brown paper.”
Looking at her bewildered expression, he winked conspiratorially, “You won’t understand, choti!” Then added, “Just wait till you meet her then you will know.”
Deep well
Living waters
Springing up from my heart
Overflowing with life washing
Away
The dross
Of toxicity threatening
To destroy the essence
Of what is me
Sing on
The week following our endless evening was a roller coaster ride of hushed calls from unsearchable phone numbers, secretive meetings at obscure establishments and inopportune embraces. Our long involved conversation in Lisa Lund’s Gin Joint back corner booth culminated with a brief but passionate kiss and promises. At various points she said her name was Lilith, but in her family she was called Vashti after her grandmother because they were so much alike although I could call her Saskia because that’s what her father had wanted to name her and her friends had found that out so started calling her that and we were of course going to be friends if not much more. And then, a week later, over potato pancakes and mid-day lager at the Polish Pottery History House’s lower level backroom diner (the best, check it out) her purse fell as she went for the lavatory; she…
Eileen was hesitant to open the door leading up to the attic because she was afraid when she got up there she might find…memories that she had suppressed for a very long time. Even the thought of entering the house alone was bad enough, but that attic was somewhere she really never wanted to be again.
When she finally opened the door, all the bad juju that rested in the attic when she left came rushing back into her mind. That was a place of terror for Eileen. Always has been… and always will be.
It was the house that she grew up in, and it wasn’t like she wanted that part of her childhood revisited…