Thoughts

कुछ और तो मेरे पास नहीं
बस ज़ख्म हैं तेरे दिए हुए
वो क्यों न मुझे अज़ीज़ हों ।१।

मांगता है तू माफ़ी मुझसे
कैसे करूँ ऐतबार तेरा
कुछ लहज़े में तो तमीज़ हो ।२।

न रख मुझसे कोई गिला
वो क्या देगा शिफ़ा तुझे
जो ख़ुद ही तेरा मरीज़ हो ।३।

बस मुझे ही नहीं इज़ाज़त
यूँ दुत्कारता है मुझे अमित
गोया कोई नाचीज़ हो ।४।

In response to: Reena’s Exploration Challenge # 80

” What’s the matter mommy, why do you look so sad”

Helen turned to her daughter, distracted, torn between two worlds, ” Mommy’s not sad, just thinking. I’m thinking of when I was a little girl like you”.

” Can you tell me about it mommy”.

” Not right now, perhaps another time. Let’s get dolly dressed shall we”. Helen put the thoughts from her mind and concentrated on helping Di to dress dolly.

Later that night, after putting Diana to bed, Helen settled down with a glass of wine, frowning in concentration as her thoughts drifted back to childhood.

She remembered the stern voice of her mother, the slaps, the scolding, the angry words of constant criticism. Her mother thrived on order and cleanliness and Helen was an unwelcome…

Reena’s Exploration Challenge #80

PROMPT #80:

  

purposeful sorrow

to build a new character

scar’s profound beauty

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She is standing on the top today

Gifts and praises all her way

She is a role model people say

Close to her they choose to stay…..

She is a winner now to every eye

But no one makes out somehow why

That charming,glowing,smiling face

Also has two gloomy eyes….

The road uphill was never straight

And often when she kept awake

No one ever lent a hand

Or tried to take a friendly stand….

She knew alone

She had to walk

In times of need

She was her rock…..

She had laughed and she had cried

She had spoken all through night

But she always spoke to herself

When the chair stood vacant on the other side…..

The ones who share only your joys

Only your victory, only the good

The ones who would leave your side

As though they had never stood

To them now she fakes a…

दिलाते हैं याद तेरी
देते हैं पहचान मुझे
तो दाग अच्छे हैं ।१।

रातों के रंगीं सपने
या दिन के अँधेरे
कौन से रंग सच्चे हैं ।२।

हसरत ही रही हमारी
चूमते गर्दन को तेरी
ये लापरवाह लच्छे हैं।३।

हो गए जुदा हम
तो क्या प्रेम के
धागे कच्चे हैं ।४।

नहीं तुझ सी महारत
इस खेल में अमित
अभी हम बच्चे हैं ।५।

In response to: Reena’s Exploration Challenge # 80

The very scars, at times, hidden

Through shame and humiliation,

Continue to cut deep

As legacies of past struggles

Resurrect their ugly heads

To remind you of where you fit in this world.

You’ve come to learn you are not good enough

No matter how hard to try to put them behind you

They poke their heads up,

Laughing at your efforts to be better.

All that is left is your constant desire

To be there, to hope, often against hope,

That you will be seen as worth it.

Survival, for all its worth

Becomes a default position.

Written for: https://reinventionsreena.wordpress.com/2019/03/28/reenas-exploration-challenge-80/