I’m a puzzle

Yesterday I read something and I’m hooked;
If I am a book how would the cover be? 
Have been thinking on this awhile 
Reena’s challenge, posed this question to me 

Friends often say, that I’m an open book   
They know me better than I know myself 
A question lingered on my life’s purpose
I couldn’t sleep last night even @half past 12

My mind is a complicated jigsaw puzzle 
The answers may be there, it needs to fit in 
Each piece is filled with thoughts n desires 
Driven by emotions, I seek answers from within

I try to push and fit the pieces together 
By trimming edges or by applying force 
Happiness may not accompany the end result
As my heart knows it’s not what I endorse

I don’t mind starting over from scratch 
Putting all efforts and give my best again 
Perfection in everything, is what I strive…